Regardless of how things are going, I feel kind of alone. This year of college is ending, friends are coming back from out-of-state, and there’s someone amazing in my life right now. So why do I feel this way? Maybe it’s because as summer approaches, it reminds me of all the things that no longer exist: friends who’ve moved away, and past loves that will never be again. Part of me also feels like I’m drifting away from old friends I used to spend so much time with; people I once talked to all the time, I barely speak to anymore. I suppose thinking you have no one to turn to could make a person feel pretty alone but that’s not all. And then there’s you; you who stole my heart as much as I gladly handed it over. Even though you’re a huge part of my life at the moment, I just want to be yours. It seems that so much of my life recently has been wasted by waiting for things that never happen, and here I am again, waiting for you. The way you talk, I’d love to believe that we’ll be together soon enough but I don’t know. There’s a different feeling involved in holding onto someone you don’t truly have, as opposed to a concrete relationship with that feeling of security. Even though I know you care about me and say you’ll be there, I still feel like it’s myself and I against everything. Regardless of how beautiful everything is and could be, I still feel something missing; something pulling on the strings of my heart, calling me in an unspecified direction. So what’s missing, and why do I feel so empty? What am I unknowingly searching for?